I have had the honour to be invited by Blend, a magazine I deeply respect. They invited me to take part in their Time to time project. The interview they've sent me for my surprise it was quite metaphisic, asking about live, death and search.
You can find the extended version below with my random thoughts... together with the photo from my daymoon series that illustrate the article.
THE QUESTIONS:
1. What means freedom to you?
Happiness
2. Are you a fortune hunter?
Yes. I’m always hungry for life.
3. What’s your biggest dilemma in life?
Worrying about art, when there are people that the only worry in their life is surviving one more day. Not giving up my life to help others. This is for sure my biggest dilemma. I try to be authentic but at the end I am having a hypocrite existence, or not? That’s the dilemma.
4. Are you relentless in finding your fortune?
Yes, I am. Some years ago I worked in a geriatric. I though when people get to a certain age they feel their live has been long and fulfilled. But I was wrong. The day my grandfather died my grandmother look at me and said “Life passes fast, faster than I thought. I’ve lived all my life next to your grandfather but I feel it was yesterday I saw him for the first time in my garden. Honey, live your life full, follow your dreams and love, love as much as you can because it’s going to be short, very short.”
5. Do you believe in destiny/ fate, or do you create your own?
I believe in fate, I believe there are future events that are meant to happen. But I believe that we create those. I feel there is these thin threads connecting every single event, person, place or dream we had with the future. And as we go through life, we pull them and create new ones that are going to open or close doors in the coming horizon.
6. Are you doing what you’ve always wanted to do in life? Are you anywhere near where you want to be?
I don’t have an absolute idea of what I want to do in life. I don’t tend to limit myself with fix ideals or goals. I see it more as a path itself, where you fill your inner bowl. I am where I want to be everyday in the morning, and I work during the day so next day I wake up with a little bit more substance in my bowl.
7. If so, what/ where is it?
Life itself, and having the luxury of being able to have a creative one.
8. What would your life look like if you could recklessly drop everything,
without any negative consequences?
Once I was amnesic for few days. I was 17. I had perfect conscience of who I was. I knew I like chocolate and that I was Carlota but, in the other hand, I didn’t recognize anybody. I didn’t know what I was doing in life or which year it was. I found myself without any attachment. A feeling of freedom overcame me. I thought I could leave the hospital and go anywhere and do anything I wanted. A thought stopped me. I just imagined how miserable I would have felt if suddenly memories of my beloved ones popped up. I stayed. I realized I was not completed without my memories. I would have been like a soul without shelter.
9. What do you consider cultural rebellion nowadays? Is there still such a thing?
I consider “cultural rebellion” is a snob concept. Is the maximum stage of rebellion our minds can come up with. Social rebellion, economic rebellion, those are real events that change History. Cultural rebellion is a consequence of social and economic rebellion. It appears when there is no more real rebellion to do, but there is still a need to feel authentic. I think nowadays there are all different kinds of rebellions going on, but not in our side of the cake, not even cultural ones.
10. Did you ever come across someone/ something who/ that stand in your pursuit to
happiness?
Yes, so many that the list would be endless. Strangers from whom I just pick a sentence that reveled a whole new vision, views and moments that made a click on my mind and I haven’t noticed after years passed and suddenly they come back to me revealing a new meaning. Everybody I keep close to me makes me closer to happiness.
11. Do you hope to be remembered and what for?
It’s inherited in our human nature the desire to be remembered, and I’m not an exception. If I have to choose I would say for contributing in their life with goodness.
12. What does your photo represent
I’m not trying to represent anything in my photo. It is more a consequence of the need to capture those one time visions that just collapse for a second. I aim to fight against transient feelings cause by a brief sight. To grasp the ephemeral human existence and our everyday live to be able to repeat it so I can transmit to others the same experience of that first view. This photo has a banal existence until it reach a mystical sense for somebody.
